“They say the strongest hearts have the most scars. Two years this scar has grazed your chest; a constant reminder to me every day of what you’ve gone through but also everything you have overcome. Tonight, I look at it differently than I ever have before because tomorrow, before 8am, you’ll have a new one.
You don’t deserve this Finn. You don’t deserve everything that has come with these scars and I am so, so sorry that I haven’t been able to protect you from them. I wish I could promise you that you won’t feel pain. I wish I could promise you that I know everything will be ok. I wish I could promise you that you won’t be scared.
I can promise you that I will light up your world as bright as I can in that hospital room. I can promise you that I will do everything in my physical power to have you remember the sharks in your crib and not the tubes in your chest. I’ll make a fool out of myself in front of every single doctor and nurse just to have you smile. I’ll scream for you, cry for you, I will fight for you. This isn’t going to be easy, but I can promise you it will be worth it.
In case I forget to tell you tomorrow as I try to smile through my tears, thank you for being brave. Thank you for being stronger than I’ll ever be able to. Most of all, thank you for choosing me to be your Mommy.”
Credit: Prayers for Finn
